Thursday, March 30, 2006
11:52 PM

running this race is so tough n tiring.
running running running and running and running running running
running running running running running....
I;m still running ....

why why why ??
haiz why why .... why things have to go this way?
can anyone tell me?

so many things...
do i have a say in the things that happens around me?
can i my voice (feelings and thoughts) be heard?
do u really care?
does anyone even care or bother?

God does.

there r so many things in this world that are beyond our control. we can try so hard but yet things will still be the same; as tough and saddening.

sometimes sinking into self-pity party and dejection is just so tempting.....
it just kind of feels so much better to wallow in despair like a pig in mud haha and engaged in some big time sorrow PArty.

but you know what this is not what God wants....
this is the time where the cruxification of the flesh takes place.

Thank God for The Helper...
the prompting always come so gently and on time. Never Late. sometimes u juz wish that He won't come and be so buzy and forget to intervene. so that self pity party can take place...
But u KNow and u know he won't! He will leave nor forsake Anyone. unless You choose to.

God is so punctual that sometimes u r in awe at how he can make it on time.. like he has so much to do and yet still cares and loves u like how he can feeds the sparrow in the air on time . never leaving any hungry and thirsty.

it's when we feel that we r at our weakest and bleakest, God tells us that the joy of the Lord is our strength. He tells us that His grace is sufficient for us, and His strength is made perfect in weakness. That when we feel at our weakest in our own human strength, then we are actually
strong in God's strength .
" for when i am weak, then i am strong'

oh.. God! you never fail to be there for me. sometimes running away from u seems so hard.
I'm STUCk on YOu!!
haha.. sounds funny .. But who cares.... it's my relationship with Him.

Hey i choose to look up at your goodness.. I choose to be step into Your Realm,, I choose to put on the mind of Christ. I choose to run this race with Endurance. I choose YOu above all else. i choose JOy.

I chose YOU!

"Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith; who for the JOY that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God" (Heb. 12:2).

I choose to look ... "looking unto Jesus"!

PTL!

god loves ya

Saturday, March 25, 2006
1:50 AM

Relutant that's all i can say...
i am feeling really reluctant to turn up for cgm. It's in the WEST!
the travelling time, the transportation cost, the......
there are so many things left undone, yet accomplished , yet completed.
do u see any point in attending a almost similar meeting 2 times?
ARgh!! My flesh is weak and my spirit is running unwilling. Help!

My inner man shouts," NO! don listen to ur carnal nature. listen to the HS. ur level of sacrifice determines ur level of break through. Cruxify ur Flesh! GO Go!"

While my carnal man shouts," Come more ... Just go Home

Huimei, who will u listen to?

god loves ya

Friday, March 24, 2006
12:57 AM

My presence...
does it matter whether i turn up?

who cares?
who bothers?

god loves ya