e.n.z.y.m.e.s.

2007-02-13T18:37:00.000+08:00

i have moved to http://huimei10.livejournal.com

see ya ;)

2007-02-05T14:17:00.000+08:00

entering into the Second month of the year.
BAmmm. time really flies.

BUt a Fruitful Jan I had. :)

Faith- a channel thru which one sees the possibilities without it yet being seen.
Faith an essential element in this walk.
if you don try it, you will nevr know and experience the thrill of LIving By faith.
woo!

we may nt always see the effects of OUr Faith But We can be really sure that God Honors faithfulness. :)

PTL!

2007-01-06T10:01:00.000+08:00

Hello....2007
A new year has begin.
God, you created the heavens and earth.
you put in me a new heart, a new day n a new hope.

2006 is a bUSY year for me. there was a little too much on my plate. But by HIs Grace, I made it through. YEah! and here's 2007.

Graduated from SIM. woo 2 years gone
leaving no trails of prints..
gone with the wind.... Whhhoooooshhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
Oh no.. I'm 22 this year.....

2007, I teelll u I welcome you with arms wide open.
so much to do this year.
so much to accomplish and attain
a year of MOre n great breakthrus.

it's so amazing to look back 2006 and see how God led me thru last year with the theme on the Fear of the Lord.. was going thru some issues in my life. almost made a deadly and unrighteous move. but God is a Good God. He reminded me of my theme last year and that's the fear of the Lord. it's amazing to look back and see how He uses people, situations and the things in life to remind me of the theme that i made with HIm in Jan 2006. I thank God, for this point of reference that i can always run to and make sure that i'm on the right track.

sometimes one may be in a situation where we r in wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. being tossed up and down and juz can't keep things steady or in control. everything is spinning Out of control. u know not where to turn to
or be blown apart by the issues, trials n challenges in life
and may even end up nt knowing wat to do or can't seems to make any decision or should i say the right and appropriate decision.
Emotions, feelings set in and blurred the ability of one making the appropriate and BEST decision.
the supposingly right verdict may be comforting and calming for the soul. But the aftermath of making that conclusion may be too much to bear.

God is my point of reference.

I am thankful for his Grace and for the friends that he has placed in my life. i thank God For his protection and especially for the friends whom Love and Protect me thru prayers....

God send a really good friend in my life.
and I'm forever grateful and thankful to HIm for this special friend He has sent. Thank You for always being there.

received a revelation frm God.
in Matt 5:23-24
"Therefore if you bring your gift to the altar, and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there before the altar, and go your way. First be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift"

reconciliation
a word so easily said
but hard to do.

Grace n ur intervention to take place, i pray.

2006-11-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

a challenging NOV

it was that conviction that faith that strengthened me.

words can indeed get fiery and so intense that it becomes combative.
bitterness resentment found its place almost immediately.
in a fit of anger,
any words that proceed from the mouth sounds disgusting and awfully ridiculous. UGLY!

BUt
"out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks."

BUt it' s in the fit of anger.

i can;t quite figure it out.

Yet in my heart, i know ...
i will forgive.

seriously, i still can't quite comprehend why did it happen?
why a few days b4 my exams?
why a few Days B4 A&B?
why at such a time?
why?WHY?why?

YOu mean there's not enough of things on my PLate. I asked.
WORK!
SChool - exams! Finances burden. serving in His kingdom- God leads me to my calling
Anticipating about the future - what's next ? FAmily - the yet unresolved presecution frm HOme.
It's so much better for me now. Hallelujah! PTL. BUt it's starting all over again for my sis.
MY poor Left Leg - "I'm a AH ma now" ........

what's happening!!
God Help me!

In that abyss of despair, i prayed.
God help me!
I dialled God's Hotline :
"Call to me and I'll answer you."

there will surely come one day where you will find urself in a situation where
Your parents can;t be there to protect and shield you from the ugliness n realities of this world
your friends can't be there for you
you are left all alone to stand up for yourself

Am i alone?
I'm Not!

God is omnipresent.
I believe.
His spirit dwells with me.
"I know him, for he dwells with me and will be in me."

Father, you are always here with me
you never let me walk through the raging waters without first calming it.
i shall not be scorched nor be burned by the flames when i walk through Fire.
I'm yours.
You have redeemed me. And called me by my name.
I'm YOurs.
revised and edited by me

i thank God for the friends that he has placed in my life
especially Chicken who is always there for me.
thanx so much for all ya prayers and advices.
I thank God i found you.

I may not know why n why n why n why n why n why n why
n Still WHYWHY.......... WHy Ah...
the ocuurences of such event took pplace.

But i do know and believe that
" All things work together good for those who love GOD."

what that matters most is that I kNow
I love God. n HE loves me.
hewill never leave nor forake me

"Jesus LOver Of my soul....
Though my world may fall
I will Never let you GO."

I love you.

2006-11-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

I''m on my way home
back to a place where love never fails
a place where i can find you
to tell you all my secrets
your love falls

I'm going back to the start
going to the place where i first found you
a place to be whole again
your love falls

your love falls
your love reigns in my heart

A soft touch of your love
Touch me Lord forever
Tears stream down as i pray
holding onto your promise, your promise

I love you.

2006-11-06T22:43:00.000+08:00

Running the race that has already been won.

Dare to run

"The road ahead is narrow
The way is sometimes steep
And only the commited claim the prize

BUt standing at the finish
with arms ourstretched to greet us
Is one who had ENDURED the race
and paid the final prize

Dare to run
With our eyes fixed on JEsus
Following the footsteps
Of the one who's gone B4 us

Dare to run
with power Of HIs spirit
Called to be Victors of the Race Already WON
DARE TO RUN."

2006-10-31T20:31:00.002+08:00

start with my bdae first

these pple touched my heart that day.
they sang for me.
ah!!

my sweetie pie- carol
thank you for giving me the opportunity to step into your life. thank you for being so willing to share with me your life. I Love You carol. I believe in You.

the siao cheryl - the girl who always refuse to take pics. thank you girl for coming down.
Believing with you for your breakthru. Jia you!

Lokies- Lock Keys
Woo! You rocks. Your passion and fire for God provokes me.
I wanna LOve God More than You do. haha! let's go deeper in our walk with God.
( the spokes person of Super brand chicken flavour maggie mee)

The singers for the NIght - How could i Live WIthout You!

W363 - these pple ROX.
thank you for adding so much of JOY, LAUGHTErs, SIAoness in my life.
Let's keep walking in the will of GOd. Rock the world for Jesus!

my ex ex-cg- E285
Thank YOu for the love, friendship and Fun u pple have left in my life

My ex cg- N127
Thank YOu too. Jesus Rocks!

my Jc classmates -
" North south East West whose the BEst. SR SR is the best!"
haha!

My cradle staff - Thank you for loving me. thank YOU! MY cradle Rocks!

my Odac Peeps -
( Thank you GUys for coming, really appreciate it)

My family - Presenting the LEows. thank you for these 21 years of tolerance , Patience, LOve, Care.
ever tolerating my nonsense n Loving me for who I am.

I Love Papa, MAMa, Bro, emily, Huili and ah FAng!

MY fellow BBrs - time to mark attendance! who is not here?
you pple made me realise the true essence of friendship.
real, genuine friends do exist in the world today.
You pple brought the BBrness in me.
I LOVE YOU BBRS.
We found GOd together! woohoo.
Rock ON FOr CHrist!

the seow family - thank you for receiving me like a family member of your own. thank you for the numerous prayers and care you have showered Upon my life. never fail to keep me in prayers. I thank God whenever Your came to my mind. i will Jia you in my walk with God!

the leaders in my life - Thank YOu duncan, vivien n kelvin for gracing this party with your presence
(from 291006, no addressing of " bros" and " sis").
thank you for all the encouragements n faith you pple have in me.

there's more to come manz.
wait ok!

2006-10-31T17:34:00.000+08:00

woo. took sooooooo many photos this month.
No time to upload.
thousand of apologies to those r waiting for the pics.
wait OK!!
exercise the fruit of the spirit ya.
haha!

first week: chicken's bdae n proj
2nd week: MY Birthday woo hoo!! n proj
3rd Week: euwin n roland's bdae, jieying's papa n jiexin's bdae, sch's full dress rehearsal n proj
4th week: vivacious! n NO more PRoj!! PTL!

n Halloween! woohoo!

haha.
will be uploading it real soonz manz..
stay tuned...

2006-09-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

"now faith is the substance of things hoped for, evidence of the things not seen."

woo the verse on my Blog.

believing in evolution theory is ABsurb!! how can!! My goodness!!!

Science contradicts the existence of GOD??!!

Darwin's theory = a theory that explains how simple life forms could develop over long period of time into increasingly complex creatures.. But it ignores the important issue of How life arose in the first place.

So how life evolves?
miro-organisms..
then how these miro- macro ... organisms evolve?
God created them?

so many evidence or should i say scientific evidence points towards the existence of the Intelligent Designer= GOd.
and yet pple still believes that life could emerge purely through natural chemical process ( my gosh!) and that there isn't a need for GOd.

SO in the first place
how did the chemical reactions happen?
how did the chemicals come about?
why did it happen?
who causes it to happen?
so wat if there's Loud BANG!!
who made that bang?
doesn't make sense that there is this someone who cause this loud bang

I think people these pple who believe that life / the world emerged naturalistically simply need to have much more FAITH then people who resonably infer that there's A INTELLIgent Designer = GOD. manz..

aiyo recently been challenged by quite a few pple on the issue of science contradicting God..
So did a little read up on these topic
and Praise to God..
after the readings, i'm even more convinced
tat MY God exists.
and He's the creator of the heavens and earth.

afterall, i concluded,
it;s always one's own choice to choose whether they want to believe or not.
to believe means to have faith.
and faith is a choice.
it's given as an option by GOd's grace.
My God is a gracious God. He doesn't force anyone into believing HIm.
He gives an OPtion. an choice.

in Hebrews, it says FAith is the evidence of things not seen.
When one can see and touch certain evidence of things, then one need not FAIth.
faith through empirical evidence is not faith.
faith is simply what the bible says..
evidence of the things NOt seen.

one can be showed how various strands of evidence point towards God.
and the existence of unknown possibility still do exists.

remember that in <> the bible says

" The secret things belong to the LOrd Our God, But those things which are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law."

God has His own reasons for not subjecting himself to having proof - like us being able to touch and see Him.
like how i can;t see wind and sounds.
i also can;t see God.
But I really do feel and experience HIm in my life like how i felt and experienced wind and sound.

my God is a gracious. He gives CHoice; options.
He leaves rooms for Us to make a choice by taking a step of faith to believe in HIm.

Woohoo!
I Believe in GOD.
I believe He's the CReator of the Heaven and Earth.
I believe that I'm HIS Beautiful creation made IN HIs wonderful IMage.

What abt u ??

God rocks

2006-08-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

God will make a way
where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He'll make a way for me
He'll be my guide
HOld me closely to his side
with love and strength for each new day
He'll make a way
He'll make a way.
- Don MOen

let's choose to trust and have faith for God's intervention
He WILL make a way.
There must be a way!

2006-08-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

Broom's bdae @ orchid Country club
------------05082006-------------

a free chartered bus service to orchid country club
all prepared to wreck ZHen's party manz
CHin and Yu

never see orchid b4!
hey! we r at ORchid country club where there's abundance of Orchid...
really??

me( left) and Yu ( right) reaching for the sky.
a pic taken by chin
shan't show those pic taken by me...
hahax.. in the process of learning how to snap good pics
Goona make it Some Day yey!
come on chin n ducky u guys gonna support me OKz..

self shot- me , Broom (Bdae girl), chin

my childhood friend - 18 years of friendship
Maid. though we r of a different status.
i will still love ya okx..

check it out!
the bbrs that's unnatural lust!
behave manz..

My bestie - the chicken ..
always on the phone with each other

the birthday cake - BBrs LOve BROOM!

pIc taken in a lift
chin.yu.ying.me.zhi

those who r present at the res0rt
happy broom day!

that's all for the time being!
thank God each time i think of u GUys.
Love yazz!

2006-07-15T18:56:00.000+08:00

my school's 2006 concert theme - Retro..
woohoo! we going to get Ahgo-go-go this year manz..
gogogogogogo!!!!

The wonders - that thing you do!
this is one of the song that i'm considering to use for my class item.
any good and nice retro songs to recommend????
feel free to drop your recommendations/suggestions/ ideas in the tag box on the right!
Thanx! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzllVlzzeuo

2006-07-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

this I "kope" from jingyi's blog..
from youtube actually
wang Li hon is so SHUAI!!!
woohoo
forever Love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-t-t6cFPC50

2006-07-10T03:24:00.000+08:00

learning how to post pictures on my blog. yeah!
1) the bbr at KOvan

2)the 6th bbr ani., 2006

2006-06-30T02:01:00.000+08:00

'I serve an EXtraordinary God who uses ordinary ppl like me to do extraodinary things.'

Do you haf the FAith to believe God for his intervention?
DO you haf FAith in what the BIble says?
or do you simply haf FAith in yourself?
Do you dare to take the step to trust in HIs unwavering promise?

wat say YOu?

"for many were called, But few were chosen."

2006-06-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

Staganating sia...
juz realize i haven been blogging for quite some time.

Happen to chance on JAne's blog and realise that "AY....wat happen to my blog sia?"
haha.. so decided to spend this morning blogging about the happenings of the past 3 months.
woo.. had quite a exciting, fun-filled, BUsy, hectic n happening 3 months ...

wat happen in April?
Projects!! ASssignments!! SSChoool ....
rushing in and out every day
Weekdays for school, work
Weekends for church , family.....
woo......

Actually April hasn;t been a Good month.
Been backstabbed by someone.
wounded on the back. ha...
Argh!
of all pple me sia..
I don like unneccesaary confrontations, easy-going with many things, ALways mind my own business, and will always be willing to lend a helping hand when needed.
Why me!!?
Seriously, it;s been like 2 months already. and i still couldn't figure why the heck me?!
i done my part in being a good friend and colleague.Hoping to reap wat i sow.
I believe in THe "reaping and sowing" principle sia.
BUt still, i'm a carnal being.
seeds of doubt still do exist and i still do qn..... "Why me?!"
haha...
God is Good. He taught and showed me someting out of this situation sia.
He never waste any painful experience that we have to go thru.
instead of lookin at how bad the situation is i CHOOSe to look at the Postive Aspect of this situation.
Despite of losing the friend whom i oncce Called a Friend.
I found and gained several real true friend, Almost angelic haha whom really out from their heart stood by Me and supported me thru this stage .
I guess this is something that every one will by any chance experienced IT.
IT= Kanna backstabbed, betrayed.....
IT's really Ugly!
IT's really disgusting... Yuckzzzz. SUCks manz.
all i can say is that we live in a broken down world. where pple are imperfect.
we can;t choose or haf control over the situations we face in life.
BUt we certainly haf the choice and CAn make the decision as to how we face the Situation.
haha.. sounded like preaching sia. Let me see maybe can revise this short entry into some 3 point sermon haha...

"Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves."
<>

really gonna be wise sia.

Then Came MAy!
Exam time sia
had a paper on " english LAnguage and arts"
ON the mine (OTM).
Don even understand wat's the lecturer been lecturing about.
half the time battling with the ZZzzzzzz Monster
the half trying to understand the "tongues"" that she is speaking in .. haha...
needed to exercise the discernment of the spirit BAdly

MAy = BBR anniversary
We ARe 6 years old
time really passes by FAST.
they pass by silently and almost discreetly.
6 more months ...i will be graduating with a dip in Preschool teaching sia.
Looking forward to further studies. But not so soonz lahz...
still planning.... hee

going back to the BBRS.
these ppl are my besties since primary school.

June was an exciting month.
Examz over.woohoo!i'm a free MAn! Yeah!
HOLS... even though i't only 1 month.
I still wanna thank God for this short breather for me.
really needed this 1 month to Breath HArd haha...
yes! I'mm breathing HArd!!!!!

ARgh! so much to write.
argh! need to rush off ......
wil be back
to be continued.... pArt 2 coming haha

2006-04-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

to err is human, to forgive divine...

2006-03-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

running this race is so tough n tiring.
running running running and running and running running running
running running running running running....
I;m still running ....

why why why ??
haiz why why .... why things have to go this way?
can anyone tell me?

so many things...
do i have a say in the things that happens around me?
can i my voice (feelings and thoughts) be heard?
do u really care?
does anyone even care or bother?

God does.

there r so many things in this world that are beyond our control. we can try so hard but yet things will still be the same; as tough and saddening.

sometimes sinking into self-pity party and dejection is just so tempting.....
it just kind of feels so much better to wallow in despair like a pig in mud haha and engaged in some big time sorrow PArty.

but you know what this is not what God wants....
this is the time where the cruxification of the flesh takes place.

Thank God for The Helper...
the prompting always come so gently and on time. Never Late. sometimes u juz wish that He won't come and be so buzy and forget to intervene. so that self pity party can take place...
But u KNow and u know he won't! He will leave nor forsake Anyone. unless You choose to.

God is so punctual that sometimes u r in awe at how he can make it on time.. like he has so much to do and yet still cares and loves u like how he can feeds the sparrow in the air on time . never leaving any hungry and thirsty.

it's when we feel that we r at our weakest and bleakest, God tells us that the joy of the Lord is our strength. He tells us that His grace is sufficient for us, and His strength is made perfect in weakness. That when we feel at our weakest in our own human strength, then we are actually
strong in God's strength .
" for when i am weak, then i am strong'

oh.. God! you never fail to be there for me. sometimes running away from u seems so hard.
I'm STUCk on YOu!!
haha.. sounds funny .. But who cares.... it's my relationship with Him.

Hey i choose to look up at your goodness.. I choose to be step into Your Realm,, I choose to put on the mind of Christ. I choose to run this race with Endurance. I choose YOu above all else. i choose JOy.

I chose YOU!

"Looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith; who for the JOY that was set before Him, endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God" (Heb. 12:2).

I choose to look ... "looking unto Jesus"!

PTL!

2006-03-25T01:50:00.000+08:00

Relutant that's all i can say...
i am feeling really reluctant to turn up for cgm. It's in the WEST!
the travelling time, the transportation cost, the......
there are so many things left undone, yet accomplished , yet completed.
do u see any point in attending a almost similar meeting 2 times?
ARgh!! My flesh is weak and my spirit is running unwilling. Help!

My inner man shouts," NO! don listen to ur carnal nature. listen to the HS. ur level of sacrifice determines ur level of break through. Cruxify ur Flesh! GO Go!"

While my carnal man shouts," Come more ... Just go Home

Huimei, who will u listen to?

2006-03-24T00:57:00.000+08:00

My presence...
does it matter whether i turn up?

who cares?
who bothers?

2006-02-26T02:30:00.000+08:00

was having my Qt on tuesday nite when

He spoke: " Huimei, My presence will go with you , and i will give you rest."
and there i found my rest when i decided to enter into his presence and as what he has promised i was renewed, refreshed and strengthed once again in his presence.

the most powerful thing is he spoke to me again today ... concerning rest...
" Come aside by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while."

God is definately good and awesome (nods nods Gina?).
He is always ontime and never fails to meet our needs.
Thank you, God!

2006-02-21T11:02:00.000+08:00

it's juz the 2nd month of 2006...
and i'm feeling so tired...
Lord i pray for the 'Zoe' life of God to Be upon me!!
Grace grace, Strength strength...

"I will run to you
to your words of truth
not by might not by power
But by the Spirit of God

Yes! I will run the race
till i see your Face
Oh let me live in the glory of your grace..."

2005-12-31T00:46:00.000+08:00

hey! we r approaching 2006 in a few hours time...
woohoo i'm looking forward to a brand new exciting, fun, fulfilling, challenging, meaning, goals-acheiving , GREAt .. etc 2006!

where every single day is a closer walk with Jesus, where his presence can always be so tangibly felt n most importantly always walkin in HIs will.. and also being able to be someone that shines the brightest light; adds the saltish salt n burn like the Hotttest Sun ever ... haha...
i pray to be a better teacher; someone who can meet all the different levels of developmental needs in a class, someone whom they 'll remember when they grow up, has scattered and sowed seeds of Love and has made that impactful, everlasting touch in their Life., someone who teach them the morals and ways of life, someone who truly love them for who they r and one cares for them n most importantly someone who tries her Best to be the best teacher she knows how...

hee i'm in the midst of penning my new year's resolution n goals...
still seekin God for directions in my career,studies n ministry...
let's make a decision to plan what we wanna accomplish, do or achieve in the coming 2006..
we only haf one life to live, no time to waste on unfruitful and unGodly things...
let's live our life doing things that is accountable God, glorifying him in every situation. doing our best for Jesus! yeah?! haha
always remembering that we watever we do, it has to be inline with God's will
even As we enter into the year 2006, let's make a decision to put God first in our lives and in the plans that we haf for next year
for the bible says " a man's heart plans his way but the LOrd directs his steps"

2006 will be the Best year Yet to be ...
Amen?

2005-11-25T02:57:00.000+08:00

it's been sometime since my last entry...

One month n it's
CHRistmas....
" Joy to the world.. the LORD hasth come..."

Both my sis n mum going on Holi-y to HOngkong (my dream Holiday.. ARgh!) this christmas season...
Haiz... I wanna Go with Them!! SHopping, Food, more shoopping n MOre food...
Woo.. Remember to miss me when u guys r there kZ... ( i guess they will be soo engaged in the dilemma of wat they should buy, wat if i findd something simiar n cheaper elsewhere.. or should i wait till lastmin then do the all shoopping.. or is wat i buy neceesary or essential.. wat so many things to consider... ( haha, i kbnow coz dat's wat i wnet thru when i went to Bangkok last August..) WOohoo.. BAngkok .. i will be back soonz k...give me some time to recuperate from the August Shopping haha...

Christmas is comin.. HAllelujah!
It's time of feasting, GIfts, carolling, Presents n Not forgetting... the time to win the Lost (not saying tat we only reach out during christmas.. but for this season's reason, all the more we should reach Out ya)
Jesus is really the reason for this season.. he Came to earth, crucified. was buried n rose the third day all for One reason.. N THAT is his love for all men, he yearns for all men to be drawn back to him...for the salvation of all MEn...

Jesus came n died to remove the veil that separated us from the presence of God...
this is so that we can have an go within the veil to know HImm, to have a experiential relationship.. where we have the first hand touch n encounters with him... experiencing God in the most intimate way ...(like when u enter into tHe Holy of Holies, where the shekinah Glory of God Lit up the whole room... n the only thing to attract U is God, Him n HIm alone coz there's nothing inside, no furniture, no light,complete darkness)

I pray that i'll always carry the passion that Moses had HIs Presence..
remember the children of Israel.. they r frickle-minded, easily swayed, emotional ...

OK let me present it in POint form (for easy n clearer understanding)
(take time to read Folks, if dere's any... i pray that u'll be bless by it...)

a 100 yrs ago, Israel wept for GOd's deliverance. Then God appeared to Moses n gave HIs word.. the Children of Israel was soon convinced that the LORD has sent Moses and Aaron to be their deliverer… <.. they realized dat the Lord had seen their misery and… all bowed their heads and worshiped, Ex 4:31> Their hearts overflow wif awe and joy.. they do nothing but Praise God in worship and thanksgiving... However, when Moses approach and meets The Pharaoh, this Pharaoh is not at all impressed with This Word... He Scorns @ Moses n even increases their hardships with Brutal workloads that they can hardly bear with... Pay attention here..dere was a total change of attitude here they (e children of Israel) immediately got upset n rail harshly @ MOses, become disheartened n frustrated with MOses..

yet over n overtime again God In his Mercy still delivers them...

Once out of Egypt.. God directs MOses to lead the whole gang of them to the shores of the REd sea .. they look back n realise that the armies of Pharaoh is catching up on them... and GUess what they do here.. as u know.. they complained, whined, lashed out at Moses... " won't it be better for us to still stay in eygpt..no graves in Eygpt? wanna us to die in the wilderness, they even said this.. it would have been better for us to serve the Eygptians than for ur to die inthe wilderness ( translated by me.. hee)"

see the attitude here.. when things r not going on right, they complained, whined like little immature children, mummured agst MOses.. Their own selfish reasons overrode with their desire to fulfill God'd own will.... they were consumed with a love for their own lives.. n lacked the BUrning desire to Know N seek God's heart ....

Once again God is merciful .. he splits the red sea.. n bring them to the Dry ground.. with the rest of the armies buried under the mighty waters of e Red sea...As u know, the children of Israel cheered, rejoiced n praised and danced B4 God.. guess wat all these r short lived!! a few days later, when they realized that h20 was scarce, the supplies of food was slowly diminishing.. they once again Bitterly complain n whined.... " Back in Eygpt.. we had pots of meat n bread to eat to out fullest .. here where u have brought us to ... the wilderness has nothing.. u wanna kill this whole assembl ewith HUnger... (own translation by me)..see ...these pple here are only happy and thankful when things are going on well for them .. they get wat they want,but get unhappy when things r not going well for them... They elevate their own desires Over His Heart n purpose...

Oh.. u know wat happen.. God got FED up...n tells MOses..translated n shorten by me.. but the gist is there ya.." i would give you this land.. i will send an angel b4 u ...But i will not be with you for u r a stubborn, unruly pple..." ( Ex33:1-3)

God told Moses that he would lead the pple into the promised land...he would even send a angel to guide, protect n drive enemies off BUt his Presence Was not going along...

take note MOses Response...

he said," If your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here." ( Ex33.15)

MOses values the presence of God more than any thing else in his life.. take note of the " here" high-lighted in green.. remember where they r at ... In the wilderness... wilderness speaks of a place of lack , hardships, sufferings, trials, challenges... MOses chooses n elevate the presence of God Above all his comfort n pleasures... Moses declares that he would rather have the presence Of God in a place where there in much to bear .. than be in a envionment,place full of honey and milk but Void of his presence...

Oh..let this be the heart cry of all our hearts.. Let's yearn for a tangible presence oF God more than we ever had ... Let's prized the intimacy of God Above Hid blessings and treasures.. let's Love God for Who he is ...

Woo..long entry .. a revelation that i gotten thru the wk.. wanna pen it down to always remember this heavenly touch froom Heaven I pray that this somehow blesses whoever reads it...Let's make a commitment to Love God wholeheartedly in wat ever situation we are at ..

Be Bless

2005-10-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

Godlilocks n the 3 bears:

Should we or Goldilocks enter the house of a person without their permission or without being invited? Should we or Goldilocks touch and use their property?

2005-09-02T00:25:00.000+08:00

"and i will go to your secret place
bow my knees to your glorious throne
have your way in my life oh Lord
Have your Way...."

O i cry out for a deeper touch from God...
i long for your presence, your fresh aointing, your everlasting love
Oh Lord.. i may have turned myself from you..
but you r always so ever faithful
ever ready to receive me back with ur outstretched arms...

Lord, I don wanna lose sight of u...
i don wanna lose sight of ur calling, destiny n purpose.
catch me when i fall...
i pray i always run to u instead of choosing to run away frm u
when circumstances r tough...
i choose you as my Lord n Saviour..
Your the lover of my Soul...
O LOrd.. make me love u as i Ought!

2005-08-05T06:59:00.000+08:00

take me deeper Lord
take me with you
let me find myself in you

no matter where i go
Lord i will call out your name
let you peace n love flows within me always

2005-07-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

5 more hours to the end of our churchwide 24 hour fast...

i'm really in awe of Jesus....
he fasted for 40 days in the desert

i fasted only for 24 hours ...
n here i am .... feeling so weak, moody, almost cannot make it...

fasting is a way to renounce the natural n to invoke the supernatural.
eating is such a natural thing for all of us to do...
in fact , i enjoy eating n love eating as much as sleep...
haha.. i love to eat RICe...

fasting is channel thru which we turn away from wat our carnal nature calls us to do by turning towards GOd and to the supernatural.

fasting brings our old carnal nature(flesh) into subjection..
sometimes our old carnal nature really need some abstainance from food to know that the spirit is in-charge here...
n it's the destiny and purpose of God in my life that's over me ...

however not forgetting , that prayer with fasting works veri effectively.

2005-07-09T00:48:00.000+08:00

woo..
met up with yu n chin to buy ah na's gift...
both of them still behaves the same 10 years ago...
hmm...
had dinner with tan n Lau at chom chom
this two r my dear dear colleagues at work..
woo ordered so much so much food

- chilli stingray
- satay (chicken n mutton)
- satay bee hoon
- chicken wing
- hao jian
- one large sugar cane
- fried hokkien mee (SUCKs)

aiyo when me n lau went to order the fried hokkien mee, the uncle said so jiao aoly (proudly)...
"muz wait for half n hour hor..." so we decided to order .. since we had ordered other food... can eat other food while waiting for the hokkien mee to come...
so we happily ate the food n tat came...

(half n hour past)
the long-awaited hokkien mee arrived...
hmm.. placed the first spoonful of mee into my mouth..
HUH.. Wat .. HAlf n hour to cook this...
SUCks..
COndemned...
EEK...
the worst hokkien mee i ever eaten...
haha.. aniwae why am i making such a fuss over this hokkien mee....
we then left the hokkien mee... 70% untouched...

after tat went to chill out at SErangoon garden Coffee bean..
a nice cooling place.. where i chanced upon when the BBRs celebrated shy's birthday...
had a great time of catching up with the both of them..
talked about everything anything under the moonlight...
thank God for these two friends tat he had placed in my life...
they brighten every single day of my life...
they added so much joy n love ...

never knew i can find such good good friends at work..
always had that old perception that good, trustworthy friendship can only be formed in sch for eg (the BBRs)...
really our lives cannot be changed without a renewal of our mindset...
things, circumstances doesn't change .. til the day u changes the way u think.....

today, i took that old mindset of mine away n replaced it with a fresh new one...
my precious friends,
may our friendship blossomed to a greater level each day...
Thank God, I found BBR n You guys...

2005-06-25T02:30:00.000+08:00

Argh...

that feeling is BACK AGAin...
burdened, helpless, breathless, worn out....
wat happen....
so many many things happened ...
i juz can't seems to find the strength, energy, TIme.. to contain ALl of it...

ARgh!!! God increase my capacity.

i look to You for strength.
In you i found myself.
Love n peace found their way in me
Jesus, come n fill me with ur wonderous LOve

I love YOu ,
i need you
embrace me in Your love
i long for you, Jesus
come n pick me up
let me stay forever in your presence

that's the heart cry of my heart ...

i don even know that i looked so tired only till Jieying ask me, " huimei, u veri tired ah? y u looked so tired...? if u r not tired then u muz be troubled..
i'm not even aware that i'm tired...
i din even realise that i'm actullie feeling troubled...

that veri fine one day, i met Quimeimei at amk n the other time at Hougang mall
haha, the mummy stills remember me.. so touched
My dear friend,
do u know that you r one of those friends that i really treasured very much in my life...
do u know how much u haf impacted n changed my life ; my whole perception of a guitarist n a christian...
do u know i misses those days of fellowship we had during our jC years
i really enjoyed myself whenever i'm with u
u brought light n hope when i'm very much engaged in darkness...

Girl...
God still loves u very much
He is waiting 4 u to return to his embrace..
He will always be waiting for ur return till the day u decide to Let Go!

Girl...

Only one person in this whole wide world will ever lay down his life for his friends
" Greater love has no one than his, than to lay down one's life for his friends." <>
Jesus Christ Died for both u n me.

2005-06-11T13:26:00.000+08:00

Chin......

Stay strong!

Let Go n Let God!

" .. and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will gurad your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." <>

God loves u.
The barbarians Too..!

2005-06-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

June has been a exciting month so far...
Ist week: great singapore sales!!!
Xueling's wedding and matrimony (sat n sun)

( will upload the pics soon)
2nd week: Pst Reuben Morgon sun svc
Emerge conference; Extraordinary ( tues- thurs)
release of results (100605)

3rd week: Kick-boxing class on every thursday
Dumpling festival
Father's day
Cycling @ ecp with Tan n Lau

4th week: .....so on ..

2005-05-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

BBR ANi cooming!! Woohoo

2005-05-17T20:44:00.000+08:00

Short week ... But many MAny happeningSsssssss...
be it gOod or Bad , i still give thanks to the lOrd

Woohoo Pst Phil conference Is truly phenomenal. I learnt So much So much thru all the conferences n svcs Last week.. His word is really Brought in due season for Me.... esp in preparing and training me in being Boldern having more courage n Faith In God IN the coming trials, challenges.... n also lay the importance of the Path of leadership in my life..

been to several pst Phil conferences and services.. n felt that the Sat Nite Svc was The Most Powerful one.

that night, Pst preached on being Soldier for Christ. cool!
God is looking For pple( Soldier) WHo can n is able to fight!

A soldier is someone who must be
1) Strong
2) Obedient
3) Discipline
4) Devoted
5) Awake
6) Armed

a soldier is someone who can fight for Jesus... he muz be One who that can endure thru Trials, persecution n tribulations...
A trial is A COMPLIment from God... ( huh! u sure? )
Let me explain... when one has the priviledge to go thru Trials n tribulation he/ she is given the opp tO grow closer n deeper with GOd.. IT is only Thru Trials That one is strengthend
Going thru trial produces Patience, perservancee, faith etc....

yeah!!truly indeed it is Only when God has Great things/ blessings instored for us then the Devil will be so HArd n active At work...
Hey friends, if ur walk with God has always been so Peaceful, calm, not much of a happening... Praise the lord for tat... However, if it has been at this stage for quite some Time...
Hmm... There are several reasons to it.. either the devil is too buzy "attacking other Believers" or the Devil himself couln't even be bothered to 'Disturb' u due to your Non-threatening presence .
nevertheless, if u r going thru some trials now... Praise the lOrd.. for the word says that one mus go thru hardships to enter the kingdom Of God..which means u r given direct access to the kingdom Of GoD ..Woohoo ...COol!

i say that trials and tests locate a person. In other words they determine where you are spiritually. They reveal the true condition of your heart and How one react under pressure is how the real you reacts. .
God is definately more interested in developing your character than our comfort. At times He lets you proceed, but He will never let you go too far without discipline to bring you back. In your relationship with God, He may let you make a wrong decision. it is then the Spirit of God causes you to recognize that it is not God's will. He guides you back to the right path. He will clarify what He wants. He will even take the circumstances of your disobedience and work that together for goodas He corrects you and teaches you His ways.

woo Yeah!

2005-05-13T01:11:00.000+08:00

woo.. juz reached home form PSt Phil Conference!
It was Great, Awesome. woohoo..
Truly The God i believe in Awesome...
He moves in so mAny ways wosh...
really felt the tangible presence of the Holy Spirit During the Meeting...
was once again refreshed and renewed in his presence..

Ah......
really thank God For all the wonderful Friends he has Placed in My life Esp the BArbarians (Bbr) Love YOu Guys Manz.. *MUcks*

never know i can talk so loud, laugh so loud with Mouth opening to the maximum...hmm.. sometimes with saliva dripping/ splashing out (Huiyu u know wat i mean rite), slap pple (act the table too) so hard, Clap so hard n loud when wan to laugh, SHake leg... Act pussy Cat hee, eat so much chilli ( the ji si mian auntie chilli), drink finish the AUntie soya bean (the whole clique actually), fight with Chin over the Stupid chilli issue, play catching in sch with the sch attendants haha, n be so indecisive in deciding wat to eat during recess or lunch ( we can actually discuss for 30mins on wat to eat) so many many more... Actually On the whole is Never Knew that i can be so BArBARic.... til I met this Group Of Pple in my life..

God has really bless me tremenously with all these friends in life.. woohoo... I found n maximised my hidden potential of being Barbaric with these Girls Here.. Tell U i really enjoy each n every one's presence n friendship n could haf never develop to tis stage of barbaricness without them...by doing a simple activity such as toking to either of them one is actually exercising one's Gift of barbaricness ... WHy?
COz.. U need to scream n shout ur LUngs Out to ASK A simple QN like " what u wan to eat ?" to 10 really barbaric gIrls haha..
Woohoo...hey n i proud to say that everyone of here in the BBr Group has set the standards of wat a bbr should be like.... hmm maybe JIngzhi still need some polishing n upgrading hee ... can send her for some " to be a Bbr" fast track course.. conducted by Ur veri own Qualified BBr LAoda.. ME ... wat u girls think? not bad rite...hee
n of coz... I proud n honour to lead This special, lovable, group of BBr Girls..

By the way , i'm the LAoda Of this BBr Group ... WOohoo....

actually To look at our whole clique ..is AMazing to see how God has changed n transformed us to who we are today...
Back then we were juz A normal bunch of Innocent, Cute, visionless, playfully, crappy, rubbish.. make fun of teachers ( Xu lao shi) hee PL girls... with only sarah n kang in church ..now we see almost 80% of our clique saved n washed clean by the bLOod of Jesus or at least heard the gospel B4 actually we will hor Coz we were frm a mission sch mah.... today Most of us r not only were saved but serving faithfully in manymany many Different ways ..... woohoo..
woo see how God has bless ourClique...
Bbr Lets's continue to be thankful n grateful for all the Things God has done for our Clique...
continue to keep every one in prayers n pray for the salvation of all our Bbr n families.. yeah!!!let's stand together to believe that God will Bring Salvation to all our BBr n Our Families.. Yeah!!
The bible says " ALL things are possible for those who believe in HIm." YEah!!!
WOOhoo...
God loves the bbr n i Love You girls too..

2005-05-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

One more Paper to Go .. WooHoo

2005-04-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired!! only slept for two hours yesterday!!! woo it's been quite some time since i last 'PIA' Project And Exams....Haha the feeling is like so... Foreign But yet so close n familar... WOo Exams in 2 weeks time...n how's my exam revision? haha..i also donn noe neither here nor there.... haiz.... StrEssed ah ...But i really wan to do well leh.... WAt the Bible Say is very True...it's always the Spirit that is willing and the Flesh that is weak!! My flesh been constantly calling me to Sleep, rest, Relax.... the exam is still quite Far ..no worries!! BUt deep down in my spirit i know and i know that TIme Is ruNNing sHort Argh!! Huimei.. WAKe Up mAnzzzz....!! WHAtever u do, do it as heartily as to the Lord and not to Men!! Yeah!! In whatever u do , do it for the Glory of God!! AMEN n AmEN!! woOHOO... AND THAt's when the Holy SPirit comes just in times when he reminded me of wat the Bible Says n that Spurs Me ON... On man to do My Best for God.... HAllelujah.. I love you Lord!

2005-04-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

An extract taken from the Book- Boy meets Girl By Joshua Harris

I saw the CReator's hands forming little me. the same hands that had created the stars and the heavens were carefully fashioning me. i was filled with wonder and gratefulness.

i wept as i continued to see myself, now a young laddy, sitting in the center of his hand, knees drawn up to my chest, my head lifted to the LOver of my SOul- my all in all. i was focused on HIm and only HIm. My gaze was filled by his face. and he looked as delighted as i was to have my total attention. i sat for what seemed an eternity, marvelling and communing with my saviour, my eyes reveling in Him.

as i sat there, i saw, out of the corner of my eye, his other hand coming into view and inthat hand i saw him......

woo...after reading.... i believe that that day will come n believes that God will Provide!
sometimes , we will have this desire or want something so badly from The Lord...then we will pray pray pray , fast fast fast n every single day keeps thinking about it.....haiz..but have we ever ask God whether what we want and desire is in his Plan n will. God says ah he will give to you if you really want it so badly. but however, what happens next we got to bear the consequences of our requests!
haha.... see !! sounds familar? haha...
God is always right on schedule! he has never forget or overlooked you..... we just have to wait upon him and believe in Faith that he does Provide and Provide on Time! Yeah!

2005-04-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hey!! everybody, i'm really finally Back.... it's been so long so long LOOOONGGGG ah...since i last updated my BLOg!!!! HAha..i see Cob webs, moths, dust everywhere Sia..haha!! WOo HoO...

lIfe Been Great!! WHat Abt you Pple?? Been juggling between Studies And Work!!! haha ...not Easy ...but PraiSe to God. for he has always been my strength and refuge in times of need!! HalleLuJAh!

" WHom have i in heaven but you?

and there is none upon earth that i desire besides you.

My flesh and my heart fail;

But God is the Strength of my heart and My portion Forever."

2004-06-13T19:01:00.000+08:00

hello,every body !! i'm back!!!i've got sooooo much to share!!
my com ..argh..don even noe wat happen to it ...cannot go online...worst come to worst i still don haf a handphone...haha...i'm uncontactable, unreachable, untouchable!!!waahaaahaaaaaa.. thank God, for a kind n generous friend like gina!!! i'm now at her hse.

i received sooo much blessings thru out this few weeks..i truly believe that as i sow faithfully in the kingdom of GOd.... GOd will definately bless me back not juz a thirty fold noe a sixty fold ..but a hundred fold..
yeah!! and that really come to pass....
i always wanted a guitar ..a guitar of my own.. finally God hears my prayers.
i was blessed with a guitar n a guitar cover from lynnette, my dearest friend.
three years ago, when i started to learn guitar ...i never knew one day , i would actually rise up to be a cellgroup guitarist!!
this is my potential given by GOd!!!i thank God for this potential.n i'm going to maximise it!!amen!!n i want to bless the Cg with this potential... amen!
yeah!!some more blessings to testify...yeah!!! it's coming

i was even blessed a tuner by amanda...everything is provided by God
truly God is Jehovah JIreh, the provider. amen..
woohoo... i am blessed!
yeah!!
my mum blessed me $100 to make a new specs..waaahaaa..
i'm quite gong rite ..i shld actually use the money to buy a phone!!
heee....alright pple.. aniwae i'm getting a phone soon..... yeah!! real soon man!

not onli did GOd send financial blessings to me ....
he send me really good people around me to bless me !!
i went for a short guitar lesson conducted by sina a few weeks ago...
woohoo...i really learnt alot frm her ..i thank God for YOu Sina , you are my help in times of need..thank you for being there when i needed some one so badly to coach me in my guitar playing ...thank you sister.MAy God bless you in your going in n coming forth. amen!!! soo much soo much....to testify God's goodness n blesings!!

i am so blessed!
definately,thru these blessings i experienced ,i'm superly encouraged to be a blessing to the pple around me. yeah!!
u know ah!we come to this world For a purpose, not onli to receive n experienece the blessings n promises God has for us!! BUt also to come to bless the world!!
Be a blessing to the world!! AMen!!

haha....haha...
i went for class gathering yesterday i with my JC clasmates!!!
hmmm... it's been along time since we met up ...
indeed, every one has change...for the better i hope!!
haha...the funniest change was between euwin n Yuen kiat !!
Euwin gained weight???...
yuen kiat loss weight???....oh no...wat actually happpened?
the girls ah ...all Bian MEi le....
haha...woohoo...everyone i mean the girls now is a mei nu ...woohoo..
well, kind of disappointed, that JIanqi is not there!! she is my studying buddy !!
we suffered the tortue of A'levels together ..woo...
kind of miss her ..haha..aniwae once i reach home i quickly gave her a call...
thank GOd !! i managed to get her ...CHitchat for a while!!
we actually made a aggreement with each other during one of our studying session ..n that is, one day after our A'level, We will go back there n laugh at the students studying there ....haha...wat a lame thing to do ....but i think i'll enjoy it ...haha...
hai..it's been soooooo soooo long since our last paper ... n yet we still haven fufil that agreement of ours. we are all buzy with our own things...hai!!

hmm.. manage to get some up dates from my classmates yesterday !!
hmm...seen Serene!! Finally After one year!! haha...

i guess sometimes we will reach our lives' lowest level. that includes feeling spirtually , physically n enmotionally down!!!i guess that is part of life .... there will always be our veri down period !! but never forget ..after the down period there will always be a up period.DOn't stay there too long!!
keep pressing into the presence of GOd !!!
Go back to ur secret place n FInd GOd Back . He is always there!! he is waiting for u ,Brother!!sometimes we may not understand why these things are happening to us...but always remember that he holds tomorrow!!
maybe u find it hard to discipline Urself to sit n talk to him. you can try talking to him as u come home from camp or even during ur bath!! GOd is omnipresent ! he is with u everywhere u go ! it's juz that u din realize!! yeah!!!
okie lah ....see ya in the next hundred year til the day my com is okie!!
God bless!God loves u n i love you too!

2004-05-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

hey , I'M back from Tioman!!!
i went there with Sarah the ah bu, kanghui the dog n jieying the chicken.
kind of like the place there, didn manage to bring a camera there so hmmm...no pictures to keep...haiz...sad,it's tragedy!!! regretted! hope tat there will be someone kind enough to help me develop the photos.

I love nature, sun , the beach…
Tioman has these three things!!!
the water are rather clear
the waves are a little stronger than s'pore's
the islands there are so beautiful!!
i tell u i swam with fishes with the size 10 or more foot ...
rather afraid of the scaley feeling.. screamed whenever a swam of fish swam pass haha...i guess i not onli irritate the fishes i irritated my friends too...

we went canoeing on the first day !!! i partnered The chicken !!we suffered much difficulties thru out the whole canoeing trip!we kept hitting each other's paddle.. . aniwae i think it is because we are seated in the wrong position!! i was seated in the front seat n she behind.....haiz...

i slept beside ah bu.. (oh i feel so safe n secure beside ahbu)...haha aniwae we are onli given 2 blankets...therefore i haf to share with sarah ,while kang with chicken ...i guess me n bu is of the harmonious pair who shared blanket equally!!! kang n chicken is the aggressive pair!! they can even fight for their blanket while sleeping... ain't they PRO!!! i sometimes wonder whether they will ever feel tired quarrelling with each other....maybe to them this is not quarrelling but juzt their common conversation ...who knows ah??.hahaha

we went snorkelling on the second day!!that is the day when my feet became like mang-ga-li's leg..it is like much darker as compared to the rest of the leg...haha..ani wae ..i think i'm like the onli who kept using sarah's after sun lotion...like my own, like free one,...haha pai seh ah bu..it is actually ah bu's ....

ah kang fell sick on the third day !! that day we decided to go trekking after much discussion in the aggressive manner! but she is full of the cheong spirit... still went trekking with us to Genting village form paya village. kang !! proud of you!!this is the sacrificing attitude of BBR...not everyone can master it ..!!*SAlute to kang*

i think i'm in a tranquil solitude mode or u can say the loner mode (taken from yam's blog) thru out the whole trip! as what yam had said it may seems anti-social. n she loves the feeling of being alone! (yam me too!! no wonder we can clique so well)...i can say that i kind of kept to myself most of the time !!don noe why ...
i juz like to walk around n explore things....
since no one seems interested to walk around with me....
i guess i can't contain my curiosity then i juz walk on my own lor...
of coz if anione is willing to join me i'll be more than happy.. sadly, i don think anione wans so i juz turn on my loner's mode n walk around.....
i don like to sit around n slack..esp when i'm are on a holiday now!!! i have slacked n sit enough for about three months during work!! i had enough!! haha..i want to walk around!! I LOVE to walk around!!
haha...
i'm kind of disappointed !!
i didn manage to experience the night life of TIOman...
haiz....we stayed in the room and played dai di for the first two night!!finally,when me n bu decided to take a walk on the third night!! it rained!!!haiz ...sad case rite!!!

haiz..the pple there at tioman seems to have nothing to do most of the time...i always see them sitting around...doing nothing....it seems like the onli time they have things to do is when tourists come...
maybe this is the so called stress free life they are living...
i think ah ...if u ask me to stay there for 1 month.. i don think i will be able to take it ...because i think it's going to be too so stress free..that i feel stressed doing nothing...
maybe this is juz their way of living!!!

i juz wanna thank GOd for sending his angels to protect us from food -poisoning, bad weather,good n safe accomdation...n many many more..
thru out these 4 days..Praise to GOd!

2004-05-02T01:00:00.000+08:00

"there is nothing, there is no one who compares with you ....
i take pleasure in worshipping
i take pleasure in worshipping
i take pleasure n worshipping u my lord."

my lips shall praise u forever lord...
my hands will be lifted up to u, most high
i surrender my total being into ur hands
teach me lord to love u more each day
that's the cry of my heart ...
i want to know u more ..
i want to love u more....

2004-04-30T08:50:00.000+08:00

i sometimes do really wonder ....
what happen to me two years..ago..
why didn i wake up fast enough from my self declare long sleep ....
why didn i realise the seriousness of getting a good A level grade ...
what actually happen....?
why did i actually end up in Jc , SRJC...of alll places SR??
i don't know...
come to think abt the pple i met ....
Classmates, odacians, church friends(in sch).....
did i reallyy build true relationships with them....o0r did i even make an effortt to know them individually or juz .....hey ....ha...hoo...

2004-04-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

ecc 4:9-10
" two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labour.For if one fall, one will lift up his companion.But woe to him who is alone when he falls, For he has no one to help him up ."

I will never be where i'm today if i don have true good friends around me. i thank God for the pple he has placed in my life.
True friends will always lift you higher and challenge you to walk in a manner pleasing to our lord.
< as iron sharpens iron,a friend sharpens a friend.>pro 27:17

thank you , Father for being my best friend.
thank you, for my cellgroup n church friends
thank you , for my Barbarians....
thank you , for my family ...

2004-04-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

A hot friend cooling

2004-04-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

2 kings 4:6
< Now it came to pass, when the vessels were full, that she said to her son,"bring me another vessel." ANd the son said to her," there is not another vessel." So the OIl ceased.>

2004-04-17T01:11:00.000+08:00

Hello Blog!!! Long time no see!!how r u ?? haha.. I sound lame n Wrong !!!!
It's been a verI long time since i last blogged!
A lot of things happened! During this long break!! Let me start..
Did I tell u that from april onwards I will be working full time!!( 9 - 6pm) per day ând every sat
Since the day, I was transferred to the infant section life has really been ver I sianz, bored n slow ah...I tell it is real slow lor!
i'm taking care of BABies ..real babies(2 to 4 mths) haha this barbaric huimei happening rite hahhaaa..i'm preparing for my mother hood!!! Haha..can't believe it !!!!i even have parents asking me whether I'm married!! Haha¦that's weird!!of all pple me!! Haha..let me show u some of my favourite children ..i'm biased!! I agree!

I bought a new bible !!! WOOW..yeah!!! mY veri first own BIBle!getting a bible has always been something I wanted veri badly!! I think those of you that had seeen my Torn apart , pages dropping out , torn cover page , tapes all over will know why I wanted a new bible so badly !!!well, finally I GOT it !!! Hallelujah ¦!!! Using my own hard earn money ...this is my VERi First Own Bible !! I remember my first bible is given from a church near my hse¦..after a year I can't find it don noe why ??? I remembered, I even borrowed a bible from Euwin, his bible is a student NIV study bible,after not quite long I returned it to him coz it is not vei nice to hog on it for long.haahah..actually that is what I did !!! but then I realized not vei courtesy of me to do so .so ..I.return it.since then I have been using a Bible given from my Sec school ..til now
After much seasoning , flipping , highlighting it has come to a stage that I don even dare to lift it up whenever Pst kong says,' lift up ur bible to God and say...... ' i'm too paiseh to lift it up ..so afraid that one half of the bible will fall off as I am lifting the bible up...now it's a diiferent case man !!!! a brand new Bible ( new King james version) yesh!!! Yeah!!!

I went for my advanced theory test¦.today ..i must say ..i studied harder than I did for Basic theoryI pray ,..that I will pass the test man!!!i lift this test into God's hand .Yeah!
I'm going to thoi man next month with my barbarians!!! Yesh!!! Yeah!!! Can't wait for the beach n sun there!!! This will be the first time the barbarians go overseas together!!hmm.. I think it will be a veri barbaric trip cause ..the laoda (that's me) and ah bu will be going too....how barbaric can it go when ..the two big Head is going !!!

Calling to the barbarians that is going for the trip .........
Be ur most barbaric when you r there!!! We are going to spread our barbaricness!!all over the world man!!! And THoi Man , Malaysia will be our first stop!!!!this will not be the Last stop but our veri first STARt that is going to Spark a whole Barbaric Revival all over the world!! Yeah!!! Yeahyesh!!! Ho..ahha..haha..

Calling all the barbarians that is not going for the trip.....
Be on ur most barbaric too here in singapore!continue to shine ur best ... pray For us !!! Pray for our safety n our success in spreading our baRbaricness when we are over there!!!yesh!!!haha

2004-04-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

I need to improve my GUitar skills....
i tell u it SUcks man.....!!!!!!!
have you seen a Cg guitarist that doesn't know how to tune a guitar, Play barchord, or one who can't even afford a good TUner or Guitar BAg !!!!!!Worst still someone who doesn't even have their own guitar !!!! how can i fight a war using others sword!!!! ...sucks man...!!

iI teell u i feel so unjustified, CHEated working every saturday !i tell u every sat lor.....!!! i'm a full-timer n i still have to work every sat !!! wah ...sai lor !!
the teachers there get more pay than i do n yet they still complain this complain that !!! i work the same hours as them lOR!!!! n who should be the complaining when they get more pAY than me!!!Complain complain!!! complain......!! wat's the point???!!!
of complaining so much when it can't even change the stituation u r in!!!!!it juz worsen the whole scenario!!!!it makes life /work seems more SHIT !!!!
proclaim positive things n it will makes things easier for both the hearer n sayer!!!
ARgh!!!! SICK man!!!!stop that !!! or i will start complaining tooo!!!

2004-03-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

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2004-03-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

i was on my way to cellgroup on Thursday (250304) n i met someone special!
i hope special is the word.....he is someone who has lost his sight...he is quite old around (60-70), quite tall ard 1.8...
he was wearing this BAdge that says < Jesus is lord> on his left chest ... by the look of it confirm plus chop that he is a christian ..right.....

the conservation between us began as i was leading him to the KOVan Shopping centre coffee shop.
he asked," where are you going?"
i answered," i going to cellgroup."
he asked," so which church do u attend?"
i answered," City HArvest Church."
He said," that is the church led by REv KOng Hee n PSt Ho Yeow SUn>"
I was thinking ....wooo..he knows ah..that's good man..
he continued," Pst kong, Great man Of faith.pSt sun, veri talented Winning THousands of souls . together they are doing Great works for JEsus!"
I answered," AMen! Praise the loRD."
Woo...i tell u i really feel the presence of God ...while talking to him. it gives me Goose BUmp!!! < the spriit of the Lord is near!>
WOOWoo!!!!
he even told me that he attends this church somewhere near Serangoon Stadium.he told me that last time He was A Buddhist n anti-christ! n i was like ME too!!!
haha....i guess we found common ground !
then he went on,...... It's getting more n more exciting man....Read ON man..
he told me that last time as a Buddhist he learnt about Enlightment and.....i 'm not sure wat .....u shld know lah..i'm not a buddhist!
hahaha.....
and the day he received Christ is the day he received the revelation of coming to realistion that onli Jesus Christ n onli Jesus in this whole wide world would Die sacrifcingly for us that includes me and YOU!!!
" For God so loved the WOrld, that he gave his onli begotten son........."
jesus gave his life for us.........
that's right ! that's right!
he continued ," i can lose my sight, but i cannot lose jesus christ in my heart !"
i was like wooo...amen! n amen! " even though , i'm blind ", he said," jesus never fails to protect me. he will always be there for me. juz like now, he has send u sister as an angel to protect me from harm n accident. that is why i never worry!for God is with me!"
WOOO!!! PRaise to God.. This brother has definately impacted me alot , he is truly,a man of faith!

after i send him there. i'm off to cellgroup!
Goosebumps all over me.. Truly GOd is real n OMNipresent!!!
the presence of GOd came over me so Strongly!that I started to TEAred!!!The love OF GOd Touched me!!! GOd, i love YOu!

may the lord bless this Brother whom i have jus known for less than 10 mins.
thank You, GOd! for letting him come across my life!
within these few minutes, i become someone who treasures my body (physical health) even more.
despite of his disability an the long route he has to take b4 he can reached his church, he still faithfully trust GOd for the angels that he will send!!!

woo......

2004-03-20T02:15:00.000+08:00

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2004-03-20T01:30:00.000+08:00

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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2004-03-19T01:31:00.000+08:00

There is a emperor, prince and princess in school (childcare)....
so where is the horse...?
Oh no ..i'm getting LAMe....

i got this from janelle's blog

pastor once said......

"today's message comes in 3 points.
the first point is : right now as we speak...there are hundreds of people in the world going to hell..

the second point is : many of you dont give a damn...

the third point is : as i speak..you are more concern over a pastor saying 'damn'...than the hundreds

this is woo!
SO true

2004-03-17T23:10:00.000+08:00

150304 is a very special day to my Brother.
It's his ROM date..wooHOo!!!
Gong Xi GOng XI!
wanna see his ROM pics....???
to some of my friends, my brother is like some mysterious Figure ...
i guess not many of my friends seen my brother b4....the most maybe a glimpse of his back when they come to my hse, or seen him somewhere b4 but couldn't confirm is him ai yah...
the reason is,
according to GIna, she thinksthat my brother has been serving an never ending Ns since the day we took our O's...haha..ani wae this is not the not wrong and half correct....
whatever ..now u shall see him..

2004-03-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

Praise to GOd!
I finally cleared my (2 yrs) of CG debt!
WOohoo!!!
I"M free!!!
NO longer shall i live in debt!!
haha...yeah!!!

2004-03-10T01:46:00.000+08:00

You have an air personality. You laugh easily and
often at the simplest of things, which gives
you an easygoing nature. Parties are your
specialty and you can't get enough of that kind
of atmosphere. Hardly anyone has seen you upset
and you will often lock away feelings of rage
or sadness to appear happy and content. Your
love life consists of flings where the other
person was often driven away by your refusal to
acknowledge your true feelings. But don't fear!
When you find that true love, you'll be able to
open up to him/her and build a strong
relationship that will last a long time.

Elemental Personalities: Which is Yours?
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2004-03-10T01:38:00.000+08:00

I have come to a decision.
That is it.

2004-03-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

Heart of Crystal

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2004-03-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

God says,
" I am with you and will watch over you whenever you go, and i will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until i have done what i have promised you ."

all those who are disappointed, depressed,Discouraged,( all the Ds), feeling weAk, Hopeless... ai ya or whatever not you have...
did u hear that ......? let me shout IT out LOud again!!!!
( with LOudspeakers)
GOd SAys that he will not leave us till the day he fulfills what he had promised us !
AMen n amen!!!
felt very much better AFter hearing this from GOd....
TOmorrow is going to be a better day.I told myself.
HOw awesome to have SUCh a GReat GOd in my life!
AMEN!!

2004-03-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

O5o304
* marks the end of all suspense, anxiety........

06o3o4 on....
* is the start of a new life ever so exciting, so promising....AMEN!

felt the disappointment in my parents when i told them about the BIg FAt Orange grade i have got for my "FAVourite SUbject - ECONomics"
what to do ?
we cannot change the unchanged.
BUt one thing i know n that is..........
"God will make a way , where there seems to be no way
He works in way we cannot see he will make a way for me
He will be my GUide, hold me closely to his side with love and
strength for each new day .He will make a way .
He will make a way!"
Praise to GOd ...
let his praise be always on my lips...

strength to be upon those who are weak
"blessed are those who are poor in their spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

2004-03-06T01:50:00.000+08:00

mixture of feelings today.
collected the results.
seen those i haven seen for 100 yrs.
THe REsults.......
there will always be a way out for everything.
this way doesn't work may not be a dead end to everything.
FAilure isn't Fatal! it juz means that u have taken a wrong path towards ur GOal!
this journey i have taken ..changed my life ..

tOday, marks the end of my 3mths of suspense n freedom
tomorrow, is the start of a new life ....

huimei,
Do not lose hope nor be despair.
remember that everything is in the hands of GOD.

<1 sam 30:6>
"Now David was greatly distressed, for the pple spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all pple was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughter. BUT David Strenthened himself in the LOrd His God."

may pEAce, CoURage n BoldneSS be upon me everyday.

2004-02-24T22:49:00.000+08:00

today , my parents left for thailand.
received a phone call from ah fang's teacher. said she cried in school.
reason: mum will be away for three days.
the feeling of being separated from ur loved ones is so unbearable. even though it's juz for three days!
my heart goes all out for her.

2004-02-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

hey....guesss wat i passed my Basic theory test together with kanghui !!!! by God's grace i make it ...i didn even study actually i did study ...hmm..juz for half n hour b4 the test... i was so nervous n regretted for not studying the test after the test!!! hai! i'm always like that ! BUt i'm BLessed! I passed! it is actually a veri small victory for me!!!i guess lots of pple muz be laughing at me now ... basic theory test so easy sure pass wan ..but wait i actually know of pple failing this test! yes!!!! so i'll make sure i'll study for the next test ...

yeah!!!! i Dyed my hair !!!!
suppose to be wine red but turned out to be orange (as wat pple said) on the top and normal on the sides. jieying said i maybe condemn by the whole Barbarians...BUT WAIt ...who is the LAO DA here? haha

Don really understand why the BArbArians actually has this ranking thingy..
bUt i guess this is why WE r BArbaric n unique..YEAh!
I'm Actually not the LAoda .. initally i'm the number 2 ...
Because of the conspiracy we had among ourselves against the laoda (jingzhi) ...we killed the laoda!!! then she became the Ancestor !n i became the next laoda! all my pple like me cause i look into their welfare! (really?) but i'm not the greatest coz Ah bu is stronger, mightier n Bigger...She is the MOTher OF barbarians...even though the former laoda died ..ah bu is not even sad , instead she is happy n relieve to have her gone!!!
at first , we thought we could get rid of her ...but she being the ancestor uses her fake Supernaturally powers to control us!...
ONe day , we couldn't tolerate anymore of Her NOnsense!!!!
we DRowned her 'Spirit' in gina's old hse (condo) swimming pool n compelled her to be REincarnated.
n she became the MAId for the bARbarians.
SInce then, everyone is happy!!coz everyone is promoted!!
we have a maid to serve us !

THis is our current rAnking positions:
Ah bu- Sarah
LAoda- huimei
PiGgY- chinyi (Actually no longer piggy)
brOom- zhen
kaNa -gina
Duckie-huiyu
mooNcake - peizhi
chicken- jieying
DogGie- Kanghui
Porkie- JIngshy.. SHy i "m sorry!
MAid - jingzhi

I love the bARbarians!

2 more weeks...
to end of our suspense
to end our short-term freedom

2004-02-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

went jAMming with Cellgroup today....
FUn, exciting!WoohOO.....
First time into a jAmming studio....
not that WOO as i think,
juz a air-conditioned room with drums, keyboard, electric guitar, amplifier, mircophone n lots of wires...haha
great experience
drums- waiying
keyboard-lynnette
guitar- me
mircophones- jane n michelle
technicians( actually no post so thought of this) - yijun n harry
i can see more of such sessions coming out!!! yeah!!!
i think this is chance to unify E285.yeah!!

went gina's hse after everything..
great to see her in her new hair cut ..
it looks kind weird at first but it is actually the style !!!
huiyu taught me some new guitar skills .yeah!

My guitar teacher where r u?
I need your help!
friend where are u?
i have been waiting for u to call me back!
u r the Best Guitar teacher cum friend i ever had!!!
who is this friend?
is my ex-schoolmate,ex-church friend, someone who has impacted n changed my life. Great Friend! once ON fire, full of Faith, great Guitar skills, spirit-filled...
BUt now....*SIghz*
wHat happened? you shld have called me up n talked to me!
i'm more than willing to help! not everyone is a Prophet.You got to SAy it out!
Disappointments in man is something everyone faces!
NOt everyone is prefect! It is ur expectation of man!
MAn may fail at times, but God stays faithful all the time till the end!

FAR far away, you slid
til i can't even see ur shadow
Gone with the wind, u went
SO quiet n silent

i will always be ur friend till the day u decided to walk away!

2004-02-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

i lost my Ic.
it is actually at SATA.i forgot to bring it home the day i went to collect my medical report for my pre-employment checkup.
how GONG can I get!!!
my medical report says: i'm strong n mighty! actually it didn't really say that.it juz say i'm NOrmal. so i'm Fine!!

on Friday ,
someone in the sch, actually told me that i've got the qualities to being a childcare teacher.
Oh really!thank you!
i think it's all about passion!
Passion- a strong liking for something.
Love freely does as much as Duty can demands
i really do love the children there, although, sometimes they can get out of hand.
On the whole,
they are innocent.
they don bear grudges...

EncourAGments - Oxygen to the souL

Flatter me, i may not believe you.
Critcize me, i may not like you.
Ignore me, i may not forgive you.
Encourage, i will not forget you!!!

2004-02-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

still coughing!
Life is a fight over territory!
If u stop fighting for wat u want, wat u don want will take over.

Friends, Romans,countrymen, lend me your ears
Go all out for Your dreams!

2004-02-11T17:34:00.000+08:00

You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle presence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)

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2004-02-09T00:12:00.000+08:00

my soul is overwhelmed with sorrow
saddness fills my heart

for the past few weeks...
i see one funeral wake each week at my void deck
this week there are two at one go
and i realized i have attended quite a few funeral wake last year!

why?
aging population! is this the answer?
do they know where they going?
heaven or .......

we live through life onli once
some live thru it for themselves
some for their families
some for their partners
some for GOD

your life today is a result of your thinking yesterday!

2004-02-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

heal my brokenheart
heal my wounded inner soul
come n rescue me i cried

nobody knows how hard things are
nobody knows wat i think
nobody knows how i feel
nobody excepts you
i need you, lord

teach me to hold on onto you
show me the light to ur path
you took me into ur arms

the whole earth falls to their knees
worshipping you in spirit n in truth
i love you ,Jesus

2004-02-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

Slack, SLeep, slack ,sleep...and i slack again
my Sis went china...
my brother went Taiwan...
me stuck here in SIngapore with that child care centre...

the teachers there are friendly,kind-hearted and tolerant
they haf these charisma n passion, that draw kids to them n i really admire the way they handle kids, not too fierce, not too harsh, not too strict, not too lenient...aiyah...they are GOOD!

the principle veri pretty (not the main point), open,straight-forward n stylish, she is a christian, attends new creation church, n she gave me a bottle of pinapple tart today..cny like over rite..

the boss,director of the school, seldom sees her, but whenever she sees me she will never fail to ask me the same old question she asked me since the first day of work, ' how? how are u coping?' she is rich ..she gave me a $12 hongbao!

even the cook n the cleaner are nice ...
i love the kids there...

but what is holding me back ?
i think i haf never been so lost in my life ...

"Show me ur ways, o Lord
teach me your path
guide me in your truth and teach me,
for u are GOd, my saviour
and my hope is in you all day..." ps25:4-5

2004-02-07T00:01:00.000+08:00

WooHoo!! had a greAt day yesterday (050204)! shared a shoRt message during cg, played 'Reflector' for praise but din managed to end it in the correct manner but i guess the atmosphere is still there! wooHoo
"i wanna be your reflector
i wanna shine with ur glory
iwanna let the world know that u're living in me ....."
the song 'Reflector' is by planet Shakers

children, they are so interesting!
is interesting the word ...hmm...anithing lah
today, they can cry the whole day, yell the same old lyrics of theirs n that is "i want mummy, i want daddy, i want to go home"
the next day , they can come to u n SMILE n yes! SMILE....n start to talk in their own language ..haha..CUte..but not that crying part..

juz read my mail ..hmm..received a mail from someone who juz happens to hopped onto my blog. CoOl..
the mail reads,"Hi...happened to blog-hop and landed on ur blog! Sure has potential for greater evolution..."
tHaNk you!
n i think that comes from my ex-schoolmate(SRjC) ..hope i'm rite

2004-02-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

Every now and then
unanswerable question of challenges sink in
why must i bear this pain? i cannot tell
all i know is lord does all things for a pupose

and so i trust in God , my all in all
believing he will bring me thru whatever befall

through you, true joy and gladness is felt
through you, comfort and strength is experienced
through you, peace and love last forever
make me love you, as i ought to love

this is something that i have wrote 2 years ago it is actually a song that has no melody .... i think it sounds like a worship song ....

2004-02-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

wOOoHOOO!!! hi BLOg...
i can't believe i blogging tooo..it's really fun to see ur own creation on the internet ..haha..n i really thank ah nA for helping me ...i'm a complete It nert..aha....
Head ache AH...COugh..tired..
" i want mummy, I want DAddy, i want to go home" is all i hear every single day since the day i start work ..i guess i can't say i hate it or detest it ..it is juz that i can stand it but not enjoy it ...ahhhh
head ache....cough....headache..AGAIn
i guess my body is telling me to gO to BED..CAuse i haf to reach the school at 7.15am,which means i haf to wake up at 6.15 n leave the hse by 6.45am....
ARgh......Am i still Schooling i Asked myself.....?

The JOy OF the LOrd IS my STRENGTH